Confessions {8.22.2019}

I used to do these posts at least once a month, but for whatever reason, I never think to do them anymore.  I think it’s been a good 6-7 months since my last confessions post, so it’s a bit overdue!  Straight from my mind this week…

I confess…

… that I’m a little jealous of my kids’ school experience.  As most of you know, they are attending my alma mater, and friends, they have made so many changes for the better in the years since I left!  I mean, it was a great school when I was there, but nowadays the kids get to do all kinds of special stuff that we didn’t have when I was there.  They have so many fun events and parties that we didn’t have, they get to be out of uniform and wear jeans and school t-shirts every Friday, the cafeteria food is worlds better (so many choices!), and best of all… Jacob’s class has flex seating this year!  This means that the kids can sit anywhere they want to in class – regular desks, stand-up desks, floor cushions, and various other places.  The theory is that kids do their best work when they’re comfortable (AMEN), so they are now allowed to work where they’re most comfortable.  I currently use a stand-up work station at home and I would have loved that option when I was in school… nobody likes to sit all day!  I’m just loving how progressive they are these days.  #JustCallThemGoogle

… that this ringing in my ears is going to be the death of me.  I’m coming up on 10 months of solid ringing in my ears – 24 hours a day, seven days a week – it never ever stops.  Some days I don’t even notice it anymore since it’s always there, but a lot of the time it drives me absolutely nuts.  I’ve gotten to where I cannot stand silence because, obviously, the ringing becomes more prominent then.  Therefore, I need some kind of background noise to drown it out at all times.  I’ve seen doctor after doctor and the only thing we can come up with is that it’s somehow related to my allergies and reflux issues.  If anybody has ever experienced ringing in the ears and figured out a way to resolve it, I beg of you, please share with me what you did!!  #ImGonnaGoInsane

… that I recently started meditating to try to help manage my anxiety from said ringing, reflux, and allergies.  Between the ringing and allergies/reflux issues, I feel like my anxiety is at an all-time high, so I’ve turned to meditation to see if it will help.  Well y’all, I suck at it.  My mind just will not rest.  During meditation you’re supposed to empty your mind and focus on nothing but your breathing.  Well, my mind can do that for approximately five seconds before I realize it has wandered off somewhere that it shouldn’t be… most of the time to the ringing in my ears.  Everything I’ve read says daily practice will hone your skills, so we’ll see.  If you have any tips for meditating successfully, holla at your girl!  #StuckInMyOwnHead

… that my hair has started shedding a ton and it’s falling out as much as it does after I have a baby.  That postpartum hair loss is no joke.  However, I didn’t just have a baby nor am I nursing one, so whyyyy is this happening?  Stress from all of my health woes?  Has this ever happened to anyone else before?  Anybody have any suggestions on how to make it stop??

… that I went three whole months without getting my hair highlighted and it was looking rough when I finally went Tuesday morning.  On a positive note my roots were so long that I could see lots of my original color and I don’t have any grey hairs!  Although, I think I’d rather have lots of grey hairs than no hair at all.  #PleaseStopFallingOut

Happy Thursday, y’all!